HAPPY NEW YEAR! MAY NEXT YEAR BE BETTER!!!

 

THE WORST YEAR EVER

(By: Karla Wagener on December 31, 2020)

Unusual gatherings, New Year celebrations, people getting together. Ruby didn´t even know it was the worst year ever!  She was oblivious to the situation.  People waiting hours for ambulances, tests for the virus, emergencies or medical attention, and ever so many other problems related to covid or some other problems.  Ruby was healthy.  She ate well and played in the yard.  She ran with Angelo back and forth and chased him, barking happily.

What was wrong with the World?  Didn´t they hear the presages of old to stay in and ¨wait upon the Lord¨?  Ruby understood all that.  She stuck close to home and was pleased with small joys and was pleased with simple pleasures.

Yet… she too knew she would die some day. Safety was placed on the hope of a spinning wheel and, of course, thanks to health care workers, and front line workers.  Knowledge that the world would bounce back from all this kept many going.  Ruby understood it all better than anyone. Ruby was cared for.  She lived the present. She could hold on to the belief that her best welfare was taken care of.  She had people who cared for her.

Ruby´s worry was what she would leave behind as a legacy, a bone, a bark, a memory, a photo, a caress or nod of her head?

As she pondered on this her owner´s son, Angelo, came into the back yard with a guitar.  ¨Ruby, I am going to record a song.  Please do not bark¨. Angelo began to sing and play the guitar.  Ruby didn´t notice the recorder was on.  She barked happily accompanying the music. She loved to listen to Angelo singing.  Angelo cringed.  The music flowed.  Lyrics of hope in desperate times came forth. Ruby participated!  It was like some super powerful energetic force that made a renewed conception which reverted what had happened and helped a new impulse of something better begin to come forth.

Ruby, (so weak, precarious, so very fragile, needing to be cared for), felt herself to be a major part of this.  It was principally because she believed in life, in good.  And maybe it was because she just wanted good and love so much!

More than anything else, Ruby was thankful.  She was thankful for finding a really good adoptive family, for food, water and happy outings.  How could she express her thanks for so much benefit in her life, for life itself?

She especially liked being taken to the bar downtown during social distancing times.  It was a place they could go to since there were tables set outdoors and distancing could be maintained.  And she got to go because it was outside and animals were allowed. She was always dressed in a colorful skirt matching a bow that was placed around her snout.  She would prance about and the waitresses fussed over her. They gave her snacks to eat.  She even got to eat some peanuts which she loved, but not too many since they are hard to digest.

This all made her really happy in spite of the worst year ever; at least that is what she heard about it.  She was thankful even though she realized that one day she too would die at some time.  She considered that her excited barkings would be the only legacy she would leave behind, but that caused her a great satisfaction because she knew they were meaningful. 

Everyone laughed a lot that December 31, 2020 on the last day of the worst year ever. They laughed so much at hearing Ruby´s barking on Angelo´s recordings of a song of hope for 2021!

Here are the lyrics of that song written by Angelo´s mother (me):

PILGRIM SOUL (By: Karla Wagener)

To find that something felt missing

You must go out of your safety zone.

Empty spaces are there to be filled

When you best not be alone.

 

Ideals lead to searching.

Curiosity must be fed.

The soul has many yearnings

And must be allowed to be lead.

 

It is the inclination of nature

Which exercises the commands

That causes many to reach out to yearned for lands.

 

Some experiences, no matter how happy or sad

Are just better left in the distant past.

When they are over you may find

It is time to put up your mast.

 

So as to discover others in your life felt missing

Go out of your safety zone

In realizing you need fulfillment

You will discover your best range and tone!

Christmas is rebirth!

 

TWO WEEPING WILLOWS

(By: Karla Wagener on October 31-November 1, 2020)

        Revelation 21: 1-8

Some men are cutting down the two willows on our land.

They were like sleek gentle lovers.

I can hear the crashes of logs and branches blasting out.

The saw hums; the thumps pound.

The willows no longer cry or whisper.

They no longer sing to each other.

They won´t give shade anymore or dirty the land or the house

With their many branches and leaves.

 ¨All things to be made new¨.

Parasites had destroyed both trees´ insides,

Like jealousy and possessiveness destroy tender lovers.

They were so tall, so old, so very proud!

So very beautiful, graceful, humid.

It causes sadness.

Yet they will cry no more.

¨All tears, all tears

Will be wiped away¨.

¨All things to be made new¨.

We still don´t have the imagination or creative power

To realize and assimilate this delicate, so intricate hour

Until we too have been cut down;

At best to be renewed and begin to grow again.

My Resolution letter for 2021!

 

RESOLUTION FOR 2021 (By: Karla Wagener)

In society it is common to see hypocritical, materialistic, individualistic, promiscuous, aggressive egocentric, prejudiced attitudes.

Also, can be found an orderly, organized, patriotic, loyal desire to promote solidarity and union.  It is a contradiction.

Isolation often stalks people, especially adolescents who find it difficult to make their way, or older people, or the weak and fragile who find themselves alone.

When I was young I didn´t dote on drugs or promiscuity, fast cars, violent sports or loud boisterous parties.  We were the odd ones.  My mom once talked to me about ¨late bloomers¨.  A friend once asked me, ¨What is wrong with us?¨

On December 1, 2020, I woke up from dreams at 4:20 a.m. about betting on numbers in a casino type place and some young kid followed me around so I gave him numbers to play and we didn’t win anything.  But the dream seemed prophetic to me.  It seemed all very good to me, like it was possible to win, and idealism was possible.

It will take more than money to achieve my dreams.  I bet all I have in what I believe in and feel sure (I see it happening in small ways), that it will surface.  I believe in conversion.  I believe in miracles.  I have hope in spite of this past year of 2020 with its many ups and downs, mostly on the downspin.  What will it take to make my dreams come true?

PSYCHOLOGICAL CROSS (By: Karla Wagener)

A lifelong contemplation

Has been a load of thought,

Getting to the roots through soul searching,

Listening deeply to lessons taught.

 

A cross chosen by free election,

Perhaps often quite unperceived,

Has brought forth resurrection

Of the growth of veracity.

 

The need to bring forth a pure, pure heart,

An unseen place inside

Where all the answers to every little thing, reside.

 

There exists more than can now be imagined.

(At one time having been the odd one …)

Requited as life advances, dear daughter, and dear sons!

So my resolution for 2021 is to try to accept people for what they are and point out things that bother me in a polite way.  I will listen to others´ comments too and try to become better.  I see the end to my journey is getting closer each year and the light at the end shines most principally in my dreams. So I will sing of spiritual things from my dreams.

THE CAGED BIRD´S SONG

(By: Karla Wagener)

It´s so hard to begin to sing.

If I could just start, I know I could get

To the innermost part

Of a broken heart.

 

It surely would heal.

Something good would come out

Of the hurt deep within

And help all that pain logout.

 

When I look in your eyes

I see your great pain.

I just don´t know

If I could help it refrane.

 

Love´d to break you

Out of your chains.

Show you other, better roads

To the promised land and plains.

 

See you free, to be

The best of all you can glitter forth in glee.