This is a dream I had recently!

DREAM OF MOVEMENT

(Domingo, May 4, 2014)

I went away and my father and brothers and sisters couldn’t find me.  Then I came back and they were surprised to see me cleaning and working in the house. My mother was kind of giddy and not “all there”!  She had so many material things, antiques and odd items.  I cleaned them, but it seemed extreme to me, like excessive.  My brothers and sisters watched.  Then they were living in a trailer-house, but it was really the same house.  There was a microwave oven and a machine that made juice from apples.  They had the leftover parts of the apples piled up and I told my brothers and sisters (especially Ann and Shawn, the youngest) how awful that was, that ants and bugs could come because of it.  They wanted to clean it but were vacillating and it seemed like a lot of work to me.  I wanted to know if the oven worked.  I desired that my father buy me a new car and resented that my mother had so many nick-knacks and he didn’t buy me a car.  (Cars are ways to mobilize oneself!)

What I can say about this dream is that I reject over consumption and feel that more help should be given to more altruistic activities.  Lately, I have been baking apples with cinnamon to eat to try to replace them for other foods so as to lose weight and be healthier.  It takes work and patience to do it.  I bake the apples in an electric oven that Pascual and the kids gave me for my birthday.  That my youngest brother and sister were listening to me could have to do with the young people here in Argentina who pay attention to me and listen to me.

I feel like my father abandoned me, and even though he was an excellent father, I feel that he didn’t give me some things I needed, and that there was some kind of a wall or separation between us.  I think my brothers and sisters watch me making a different kind of life, and that they notice that, but that they do not participate in it much, but deep down inside they admire me for my efforts. 

This dream was after I found the puppies so it could have to do with the excellent job we are doing to take care of them!  It also shows a desire to go back to the United States and share some of the love and contention I have found and been able to build in my life.

 I feel a need to go to many places (The Vatican, to go to visit people and places and to share what I have been able to work for).  Does this gift from my family work?  Is it too much work for me?  Obviously, I feel I need the attention, or some kind of response, of my brothers and sisters.  I once lived in a trailer-house in the US.  Even though it was a different way of living, it was still the same house of a way of life that was not for me.  My mother did the best she could, and she was not conscious of what was happening around her.

My friend, Graciela, often talks about what a Movement means.  I have written about this subject because of a writing she gave to me.  I feel that I am in a time of life when there will be changes and movement.

                      By: Karla